Man + Anger = Manager???

Certain things are hard to say... But then isn't that why we have blogs?? for people like me.. To just tell what you want.. Dedicated to.....

My last 2 yrs at office have been quite a learning experience...
(Phew!!! Can’t believe some lazy freak like me managed to survive in this competitive, messy world... May be there is a reason to this and thats why this blog...)
And like all people, I don’t know why, I too took some sadistic pleasure in those sweet insulting mails I used to fwd to my team... All those mails related to "Manager Bashing" (That’s the term coined by one of my friend to whom I used to copy all those mails..) I somehow enjoyed it, and am sure my manager must have enjoyed it too, for he would have related the mails to his manager : D
Makes me wonder why mangers are such a hated lot at the work place!!! The people whom we always think do nothing but, send mails and approve time sheets....

As the saying goes... You realize the importance of something, when you lose that thing... Today as I sit to write this, I don’t know if all managers are the same.. But for sure, my manager was somehow one amongst "THE BEST". And am sure most people who have known me ll agree with this for all those moments when I boasted about my manager...

And if anyone reading this is thinking that I am writing all this to "pataaify" my manager, na... you are wrong.. For I no more enjoy the privilege of working with that one person who gave me a whole lot of wisdom...

In my two years at office, I have always enjoyed my work to this day.. But not any more.. Today as I stepped into office, I could feel a new vacuum created around me, and not just me, I could see it on most faces....

I am reminded about the saying from the great poet kabir... “Convert all the trees in this world to paper, and still that would fall short in writing about the greatness of lord”

To me anyone who imparts knowledge, anyone who shows you the right direction is nothing short of that worldly figure... For its only someone who cares for you, who ll stop you when you are doing something wrong, and correct you and show you the right path..

And today I say.. “Convert all the area under the sky into a white board, and that would fall short in writing about this great person....” :)
And if I have come this far in my two years, and if I have achieved anything in this two years.. And if I have learnt something in this two years... All credit goes to this one great person....
None.. Other than that one and only manager of mine.. Vinay... Vinay you are always the best.... :)
And someday... would sure would like to work for you again.....

My Day Today

Home alone after a real long time. Thought would have loads of fun today. But ended up having a soar feat, and by evening it was getting worse. Finding it tough to even walk now. If all this physical agony was not enough for me, i was greeted by an even worse news when my friend called up. She is going thru some real tough moments in her life, and its a humbling sight to see her fight it out so hard all by herself. I hope she comes out this trauma and this phase at the earliest. And also pray that no one ever needs to see this bitter side of life!!!

Change

Survival of the fittest is a phrase which is a shorthand for a concept relating to competition for survival or predominance.

We need to change to be able to Survive in this world. We need to change the way we think, change the way we speak, change the way we live... We need to learn to move on with times, else we ll be killed in this stampede where where everyone around us are rushing ahead of us. We need to learn to move one.

The primary agent of change is the technological advancement. As history shows us, Changes are inevitable.

So today i changed my Blogger theme :) And as always there is this one person who helped me bring about this change.... She has been pivotal in bringing about lot of changes in me.....
She is that person who added a new dimension to my life, a new purpose to my life :)

Curious to know who that pretty lady of mine is??? :) i know a few of you who know me, might have guessed it by now.. And for the others...... She is somewhere around here.. Just look for her and you ll find her....

My love

I know she still loves me the same, she might not tell it out for i know her better than her!!!
But then why am i acting like this??? Why am I not able to decide??? When i know i ll never be the same without her...

Loneliness...

Loneliness is first a fear, before it turns into a painful longing

TEAM

Team Bonding!!!
Team Spirit!!!
Team Player!!!

Ever since the days I have stepped into the corporate world, I have been hearing this word a lot. And a lot of emphasis is laid on the word “TEAM”!!!
Esp in the team that I work in, my PM (Project Manager) lives and dies by the word “TEAM”, “Team Bonding” :)
and he leaves no stone unturned in trying his best to do it.
Team lunches, team outings, team meetings, team movies……. The list just went on, and sometimes the word “Team” would start eating my head

So when so much emphasis was being laid about this four letter word, I got curious to know what it is about this four letter word that is of so much significance.
How many times haven I heard “It’s not the individual interests, it’s the team’s interests that count!!!”

Is this four letter word bigger than an individual??? After all, isn’t it an individual who leads a team??

So I got down into my exercise…

The first thing that I had to do was to get along with my work. And of course as I spend a major part of my time at office, its more my first home and so, I needed to learn to live in harmony with people who sit next to me and work with me. The ride was not easy, for it’s very hard to get along with people who have varied background and different attitude levels. I ran into all kind of problems. I used to keep complaining and cribbing.

I used to always wish, “Wish I could have chosen my team mates with whom I get to work”.

And somehow without even me realizing, I have almost spent 2 long years in this corporate world and I have spent this almost 2 years with people who sit around me, and whom I call “My Team” now :)

“Team” is not a mere four letter word. The analogy below will explain my understanding.

As a brick is to a house – A team member is to a Team.

As cement and mortar is used to place the bricks together – A team member’s attitude is used to hold team members (the bricks) together in a Team.

As the paint, the interiors, the furnishing, the looks are to a house – Members performance, projects success adds to the Team.

As a Head of Family/Owner is for a house – A Project Manager is to a Team

Now isn’t it simple :) Team is not just a house, it’s a home :) Home for all its team members.

One member’s short comings are made up for by the other person. Collectively put, this is the main ingredient to a Projects Success.

Just imagine if one of the ingredient that makes up the team is not in place like may be the team members attitude, the bricks ll start to fall out of place and the cracks can be clearly visible on the wall and this is when the House owners trouble really beings :)

I personally don’t own a house, so I really don’t know how the house owner must feel like, but for sure even as a member of the house, when I see cracks on my wall its not a nice feeling. It’s a sign of an impending doom. The doom might be distant but its inevitable. One day the house will collapse if left to itself.

I know I ll make my PM read this article for somehow he knows what makes me write this article :)

The magic lamp of today

Amithab - "Mere pass bangla hai, gadi hai, bank locker hai, Kya hai tumhare pass??"
(Meaning - I have a bungalow, vehicle, a bank locker of my mine, what do you have?)
Shashi Kapoor - "Mere Pass Maa Hey"
(Meaning - I have My Mother)

A very famous pick from the movie Deewar. Must have made the theatre audience clap and cheer.

There is this famous song from an infamous bollywood flick, in which the lyrics say

"ki paise bolta hey"
Translate it literally into English, it simply means "Money speaks"

I might have laughed at this song when I was young. I used that phrase more as an example in my English grammar classes, as an example for "figure of speech" - "a simile"
But today coming to think of it, it’s no more a simile, it’s more "a metaphor"

Money indeed does speak!!! And it speaks a universal language. And when it speaks, it speaks loud, It can over power an entire nations voice

Money succeeds in defeating democracy, where people buy votes.
Money succeeds in buying the main pillar of democracy, our Judiciary.
Money succeeds in places where our voice fails.
Money succeeds in places where our health fails.
Money succeeds in places where our skills fail.
Money succeeds in places where our love fails.
Money succeeds in places where our relationships fail.

Its little surprise that today everyone is running behind money.
Its that one thing that makes and breaks life these days, the one thing which gives you fame and respect in the so called society in which we live, that one thing which decides your entire life....

What is that money cannot buy???

Today I would be wrong when I say money cant buy relationships. Don’t most of the relationships just stand on the delicate thread called money??? People are with you when you have money, and there is no one around you when you have no money

Everyone runs behind money, because they feel that money can buy them everything on this planet earth. Ooops, did I say "Just planet earth"??? I am wrong; money these days can even buy you a plot on the Moon!!! Yes on the moon. Not just the moon, you can even buy a plot on the planet Mars. Yes that’s the power of money!!!

"Paisa Bolta Hey!!!!"

Money is not just a mere piece of paper or plastic (Australia, New Zealand and Romania, with variants adopted in Bangladesh, Brazil, China, Mexico, Singapore and Sri Lanka. India too is trying the plastic money made out of polymer and not paper) its much more than that.

When I was a kid every time i watched " Alladin and his magic lamp" on TV I would wish how I had something similar that could buy my anything that I want...

And now maybe my dream is half come true, i have seen that magic lamp (Money) but I still don’t have the lamp (Enough Money) :)

The greedy little me

There is nothing in life that I am contend with these days. Sometimes I wonder is it just me or does everyone feel the same.

I am not contend with the money I take home though there are a lot more people I know who take home a much smaller sum, and are very much contend with it.
I am not contend with the kind of work I do, sitting in front of the comp the whole day, though this is the job that feeds me,
I am not contend with the city I live in, though I have spent all my life in this beautiful city where people all around the world flock in search of opportunities,
I am not contend with all the friends I have around me as sometimes I feel lonely though I am amidst all my friends.
I am not contend with all the love my love ushers me, for I feel she has more that she can give me...

The list goes on and on…

I have heard everyone around me compliant about one thing or the other at some stage of their lives, but I have never heard someone who like me is not contend about anything J

Some things in my list are very materialistic, and I know that human mind is forever greedy and his/her craving for worldly things never die.

But what about the things that are abstract in life??? Am I asking for more than what I deserve or do I need to be contend with what I get and make the best of out it???

Life is after all a short stint and people often say, live every moment of it. So often I try not to complain and accept things the way they are. For sometimes you only get what you deserve

So I have learnt not to complain anymore and be happy with the small, small things in life that life has given me.

But while I have been writing this, and trying to make up my mind to not complaint anymore, there is this net connection of mine that’s been crawling and acting very weird.

I really am not contend with my Net Connection/Service Provider.

O god!! Here I go again!!! Sometimes I am forced to believe I can never be contend of being contend.

Somtimes......

Sometimes we miss that someone special so much in life...
That we wish we could pull them out of our dreams and hug them for real.....

A thought....

Its neither time, nor the distance that transforms people.... its love that transforms and cures.....
And its love that destroys a person, who has resolved to give himself completely....

I really had hurt someone....

It was a cold windy day..
I was all alone walking by the bay...
I had nothing to think but one...

I really had hurt someone...

It rained all night the day she left
The sun so hot; that i froze to death..
I cried 'n' cried when she parted...
I never guessed she was hard hearted....

I really had hurt my love....

Hid my face deep in the sand..
And covered it with my hand,,
How could i breathe the air around,
Which never carried her sound....

-fzl

Hard Reality of Life...

Fights are so common in life... its a part of everyday life... we fight we go apart, then we realize, repent and then again get back at times .... but then why do we even fight in the first place, when we know its not just the other person who gets hurt, we too get hurt.....

Lonliness.....

What makes us human is not our looks, its our gift of thinking... but this thoughts are also strange.. At times i feel though am crowded by people all around, amidst a big group, i still feel lonely.. nothing interests.
"that one thought in my mind drowns the world around me...." that one thought when it comes it always hurt...

Happiness

I searched for it in god... But it kept vanishing...
I searched for it in my prayers... But i never got any....
I searched for it in my solitude... But in vain..
I searched for it in my family... I found different shades...
I searched for it in my friends.... I found different faces...
I searched for it in my love.... I found my reflection...
I searched for it in my books... I felt illusive...
I searched for it in the beauty of mother nature.... It was fast fading..
I searched for it the silent lit night sky... It didn last...
But....
I searched for it in a kids smile, that innocent smile....
I realized, this is what that i have been searching for all my life,
Its something that no one can tamper, its something that no one can force.
Its something very pure... something very soothing... something which brings joy...
Its something that never fades.....
Its a moment for which i feel i ll live all my life....

A special moment...

There we were sitting together, Lost in one another; Wonderful moments they were Which i ll cherish forever....

Her looks were enticing... And her looks inviting. The air around was craving, Craving, to carry her sound....